Time is too short.

Well, I'm not going to California like planned, but that's okay cause I'll be going for my birthday or hopefully sooner. I've learned to not let little things bother me. I really don't have the time or patience to be there for anyone 100%. Why should I work harder for a friendship when you're not even trying? I've lost friends due to miscommunication, He said she said, being fake, just no real reason at all, drifting apart, and my favorite, drugs. I can't say that I regret being friends with anyone, it's just I'm tired of people not being a friend to me. There's only so much you can handle and we're not in highschool so you don't have to see everyone all the time. It makes it easier to let go. I always question what the definition of friendship is. I've been friends with Molly since I was five. She is my true best friend. She will always be honest with me and I know I could count on her to be there. I hear about best friends not being friends anymore because the other one slept with her boyfriend. Like what is that? That is not a best friend or a friend. I've never had to worry about Molly trying to get with one of my boyfriends. Molly and I have our disagreements and sometimes we piss each other off but when it comes down to it we always have each others back. She's like my sister. I know I can always count on Deven as well. We had our ups and downs but we talked it out, told each other how we felt, and now we understand each others needs and we fixed our problems. That's how friendships should work right? Rachel and I haven't been friends as long as I have been friends with Deven and Molly, but Rachel has shown me the meaning of loyalty. We've connected and it feels good knowing someone else has been through the same things. Losing a friend because of miscommunication or a he said she said incident are probably the worst because your friendships end on bad terms. No one wants to talk because you've been so hurt and you just believe what someone else said. I honestly do nothing but try hard to be a good friend. I recently stopped being friends with someone because they chose drugs over our friendship and then act like a complete jackass about how I feel. How do you be friends with someone who won't even take you seriously because they're so hardheaded and caught up in their own world? A friend isn't suppose to just let you ruin your life, friends are there for support yes but not when you're going around doing things that not only are hurting yourself but people who actually care. Friends are suppose to tell you the truth even if it hurts. Why would you want someone letting you do things that only causes pain? God forbid you do something stupid and it has it's consequences you're going to feel guitly for letting it happen. I care so when someone tells me they want to do drugs because they are trying to be skinny, we're not going to be friends. It shows you don't care about anyone elses feelings but your own. I'm not a bad friend and this I know as a fact. I'm always there for my friends. Every friendship should be a "meet me halfway" I'm done with disappointments.